Tears of despair and pain welled in her eyes, I tried to mask mine and once again I felt utterly and woefully ineffectual. My super fit, marathon running, green tea drinking, vitamin popping Sian, with cancer. Sian saw it as important that they were informed and included. It would have been quite an astonishing workload for a totally healthy person, let alone one who had only recently gone through such brutal surgery.
There were a couple of occasions where it was decided they, rather than I, would go to an appointment with her and report back to me. Sian will never be quite the same again. It was at times like these that the full prospect of a life without Sian winded me. Some journey, some roller coaster ride, some woman. We both tried to maintain an air of normality, not least for the children. Yet in many ways she has grown remarkably stronger and more resilient in adversity and I have come to adore and admire her all the more. I would be squeezed out and, like the Duke of Edinburgh, walk a few paces behind being rude to everybody. I had actually married three women, when I married Sian. Nothing had changed one iota. But it was the only time. Then I would have to dash back down south to pick up the children, give them their supper and put them to bed while Joss and Al took my place and kept their mother company. Little cuts me to the core or strikes a visceral fear. The full prospect of a life without Sian winded me Paul Woolwich Sian stayed in hospital for several days and I had already moved with Seth and Eve to a cottage in East Sussex. Seeing me she glanced down at her torso, its mutilation shrouded by bandages. When I was eventually allowed into the recovery room I found Sian, small and battered and broken. My initial reaction was to give an appearance of strength despite feeling utterly powerless; to try not to betray the profound inner terror that had engulfed me. How could she be after what she has been through and is still going through? We were told Sian would need a double mastectomy as soon as possible and that radiotherapy might be required afterwards. My super fit, marathon running, green tea drinking, vitamin popping Sian, with cancer. Al is studying medicine at Oxford and Joss has an equally inquisitive mind. She took off the bandages and, much as I tried not to, I did. I knew that if ever this fiercely independent woman needed my full support, it was now. Although offered radiotherapy, on advice, Sian decided not to take it. I encouraged her, wishing her to be her old self, to feel complete. The operation took much longer than anticipated and the unexplained extension filled me with trepidation.
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